bullet in the head

this has got to be the worst christmas of my life. i'm flat broke and my maiden's leaving me, both of which are in one way or another my fault. i really dont need the money, all i need is my maiden. i cant see why it's bad to be needy. why knowing that she means so much to me is a reason to be cruel and hurt me. during the times she needed me, i never made her feel like i have the upperhand.

anyways, if things get any worser than this i will definitely kill myself. if i cant live a life with my maiden, id rather not live.